And just one more thing......

Just like my little man....sometimes I just throw a fit!

I really struggle with someone possibly thinking I am something I am not, thinking I am better than I actually am…. I have many faults, many failures, and by NO means deserve or think I deserve any prize for behavior. I don’t ever want/plan to disappoint anyone, especially my children, who this is written for them to read someday. I want them to know and understand my heart, my struggles, and my God. They will hopefully know one day just how deep my passion runs. This carries over into a lot of areas of my life. If I like it, I really like it…If I love you, I really love you. I know no concept of moderation and sometimes that can really bite me in the bohuncus (bottom) as Lauren calls it! So, all that to say I hate it when I fall, I really hate it when I know I chose to fail, and I hate it when I can’t seem to repent, give it to God and just go on…..quit wearing that cloak of guilt. I sometimes like to just wallow in it when I make mistakes. Like if I feel bad enough it will make it ok….it doesn’t work like that. I serve a God who forgives, thankfully….I love Psalms 103


Psalm 103

The Forgiving God

Davidic.

1 My soul, praise the LORD,

and all that is within me, praise His holy name. (A)

2 My soul, praise the LORD,

and do not forget all His benefits. (B)

3 He forgives all your sin; (C)

He heals all your diseases. (D)

4 He redeems your life from the Pit; (E)

He crowns you with faithful love and compassion. (F)

5 He satisfies you [a] with goodness; (G)

your youth is renewed like the eagle. (H)

6 The LORD executes acts of righteousness

and justice for all the oppressed. (I)

7 He revealed His ways to Moses, (J)

His deeds to the people of Israel. (K)

8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,

slow to anger and full of faithful love. (L)

9 He will not always accuse [us]

or be angry forever. (M)

10 He has not dealt with us as our sins deserve

or repaid us according to our offenses. (N)

11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,

so great is His faithful love

toward those who fear Him. (O)

12 As far as the east is from the west,


so far has He removed


our transgressions from us. (P)

13 As a father has compassion on his children,

so the LORD has compassion on those who fear Him. (Q)

14 For He knows what we are made of,

remembering that we are dust. (R)

15 As for man, his days are like grass—

he blooms like a flower of the field; (S)

16 when the wind passes over it, it vanishes,

and its place is no longer known. (T) [b]

17 But from eternity to eternity

the LORD's faithful love is toward those who fear Him,

and His righteousness toward the grandchildren (U)

18 of those who keep His covenant,

who remember to observe His instructions. (V)

19 The LORD has established His throne in heaven,

and His kingdom rules over all. (W)

20 Praise the LORD,

[all] His angels of great strength,

who do His word,

obedient to His command. (X)

21 Praise the LORD, all His armies,

His servants who do His will. (Y)

22 Praise the LORD, all His works

in all the places where He rules. (Z)

My soul, praise the LORD!

Thank you God for loving me, just the way I am, flaws and all….You are a great, merciful, loving, kind, and just God. I am unworthy of your blessing.