Why now? I am not sure. All I know is that I CANNOT get off my mind the fact I am supposed to be writing down our life experiences. The idea of it will not go away. So, here I am. Completely overwhelmed with all that has transpired since I last wrote so I am just going to chip away at it. Whatever comes to mind I will write.
I recently listened to Beth Moore's autobiography and was so astonished with how well she documented her life. It sounds like she has journal upon journal detailing her daily life. I felt a moment of shame in this as well.....why had I failed in documenting mine? Shame is the right word there- Shame is where you feel you are bad. Guilt is when you have done something bad. I learned these definitions from my BFF Brene Brown. I have struggled with an unrelenting amount of shame in my life. Where this originates from I haven't gotten to the bottom of that yet. I do know that once I recognized it, named it, and spoke it out loud it does have less control of me. Back to the journaling...I decided to let go of the shame and just start. This is not a failure. My life is not over. Just start now. Start where I am.
Romans 5:5~ And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
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